What happens when you go into your physician for a simple check up and you find out there is something seriously wrong? How are you supposed to act? How are you supposed to feel? It’s all rudimentary I suppose, however; it’s truly subjective. One person may not react the same as another. They walk out of the doctor’s office acting like everything is copasetic and then fall apart later, and fall apart again and again on their own. They can act like they are ok to their friends and family, but deep down inside they are really upset and trying not to show it.
Recently I went in for a check up and found out my heart rate is through the moon. My heart rate, when I’m sitting idle, is running at 110, 100, 109. Nothing is normal about my heart rate. On top of this, if I don’t get it taken care of I could have an early heart attack. My other options are take medication for the rest of my life or take an inhibitor. No, it’s not my blood pressure. I have this cool thing called Grave’s Disease, and if you get my sense of sarcasm, you are perfectly right. I could always get it irradiated like my brother but his kidneys are failing. Hey, there’s a cool option.
I’m trying not to show anyone how upset I am. I’m trying to be cool about it, but deep down inside I’m not ok. I’m freaking out and trying to alter years of behavior thinking it will somehow make a difference in how my body is reacting. Deep down inside I’m falling apart, like it’s the end of the world as I know it.
Only 2% of women get Grave’s disease and the information out there about treatment is limited. If I should choose to take the treatment I may gain weight excessively. If I choose not to take treatment I could have a very early heart attack. Wow! This is a no win situation. I haven’t even had a chance to have menopause! Yes, a bit more sarcasm on my part. So, what’s a girl to do? I suppose I could take the treatment and just keep busy and watch my hips flare out like a couple of loose pigs under a blanket or I could choose to wait patiently with a standing heart rate of 110, this doesn’t account for my heart rate when I’m moving, and ignore the situation.
When it comes right down to it, if you find out you have a serious health problem there is truly only one option. Get in to see a specialist and get it treated as quickly as possible. Find out all of your options, the side effects of any medications you may have to take, long term issues that may occur and for goodness sakes do tons of research. Keep active, don’t fall in to a depression! Activity is the best way to stay healthy, keep your mind off of what your going through, and continue to live a normal life. Discuss your fears with a friend or family member because it really helps to discuss what you are feeling with someone you trust. Keep on keeping on because there is no point in falling apart, you have family out there that loves you and will be supportive.
